if only i knew earlier
i would never have came
u dont know how much regret
i have kept my promise
and i will do those 3 things for u
its the only way i can make it up to you
its not enough but for now its all i can think of
so sorry

Yesterday was zoo day
woke up at 6
but slpt at 2
i got no idea why
but couldnt go back to slp
so i slacked
till 10
then i went to wash up
shower
then it was 11
which we were suppose to b there already
so i slowly picked my clothes
smoked one stick
then cooked magee mee
then smoked another
then i walked down
and for the first time
greg and casey were early
well too bad its retribution
i was trying to be late cuz of them anyway
then went down met them
then waited for the rest to came
jothi came 1 hour late
then the time when waiting
some idiot kept saying zoo is near amk
but actually the zoo was near sembawang
then the rest came
and we left for the zoo took a cab
i saw amk and thought zoo was really amk
when passing amk the cab fare was $8
when we reached zoo it was $17
so is zoo near amk?
the idiot even called me when we in the cab
just to say its near amk
then we reached the zoo
wandered ard outside for like 1 hour before we went in
we ate and ate
and we smoked and waited
then we finally went in
then we walked ard and ard
and saw many animals
and guess wad
your not allowed to smoke in the zoo haha
only smoking areas
so we were walking and yearning for a smoke
walked almost everywhere
oh and when we walked in my phone was confiscated
cuz some idiot wanted to take photos
so i din have my phone with me
so i had to have some1 with me all the time
if not i lost cannot find anyone
then we saw many many things
quite fun actually
then after walking one round
it was already 6
so we went out
and thought for 1 hour where to go
in the end we took a bus all the way to amk
and the whole ride
i suffered
i sat beside an indian
which made me cannot leave the zoo
and the seat was at the engine so it was fucking hot
and summore to make it worst
the indian had super long hair
and the hair was disgusting
the end of her ponytail was a ball
and she put it on my seat
so i had to squeeze so i wouldnt touch it
then was super tired
went to amk
walked all the way to find place to eat
then bought ee mee
then sit down
eat abit full already
so the whole bowl i din eat
then slacked awhile
then we walked to cab stand
which took forever again
cuz there was this man with silver paint all over his body
he was dancing
then after like 15 mins we finally walked off
then we parted
and some came to my house
and we slacked and i slept

it was a fun day
apart from the
stupid people
stupid waits
stupid sun
it was great

we shall go to night safari soon
dunno wad to do now
lazy to upload photos
i go find something to do liaozzzz
tata

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!

past 2 days have been fun
there were ups and downs
but still i made the best of it


we shall dance till the sky is bright
today my marshy was running ard the house
cuz i din close the cage after patting it
i saw cuz i was peeping
then when i came out he saw me
and jumped back inside
hes the cutest thing alive

and some poor thing
sick also duwan rest
summore never get to see the beautiful moon


tonight was the shit yall

HWAT THE HELL IS THE
VALLEY OF THE SHADOW
MAAAAAAAAAAAAAN

good night everyone
merry christmas
tata

ive done my christmas shopping
sad thing is
only can get on the 28th or 29th
but still its ok
still happy with it
going to slp already
din slp since yesterday
amazing how i lasted through today
2 months of not being able to have a good slp
community service sucks
school hours sucks
my 3 weeks holiday is left with 1 week
at least so far we are planning to have fun
community service makes one smoke so much
so so much

time to slp
super pooped
tata

i din slp
at all
yay

this is the photo i promised

guess who is the one who died

looks are decieving

cant mess with my greg and jun2

The twin bodyguards

the way zaad knows how to take a photo

whole group except greg who came late...

The farewell group

JU i miss you already

Last Night was my Last Day
21st dec the day i quit


so sorry
i did so many wrong things yesterdy
i just want to apologise
i shouldnt have done so much
i shouldnt have had you see me in that state
although you took care of me
when i sarted feeling better
i saw you puke
and i was tying so hard to take care of u
but i was really gone
sorry for last night
well at least i did wad i set out to do
to die and to die i did

well it should be ok
since im the devils child in everyones eyes
im trying to change but no one cares
and no one bothers
its ok the devils child will do it himself
even without all your so called "help"
now i know wad people mean by just the cover
even i know how to say but i dont mean it
i still will try Myself

i may not do the right things
but what i say i will do
and i wont go back on wad i told you

there is one thing i dont regret and will never forget
i mind was dead
but i could feel
it was worth it

you were wrong
it wasnt you who wasnt ready
it wasnt you who was being selfish
it wasnt you who was irresponsible
although i believe you wont be anything like her
no matter how much i still want to
you deserve someone much better
i should have been the one who sent you that email
im sorry for everything


ill post the photo of me 10 secs b4 i died later at night
going to find something to do
tata

18th December
the most fun i had in 1 year 5 months and 5 days
i paid
i played
and to everyone who went
Its my treat
dont need to pay me the $10
you all made my night
so did that loser
cant wait for friday




The best is yat to be
but best is not wad yat feels
bad mood
tata

After 2 days of servicing the community
i feel sick again and tired again already
need more rest
need more alcohol
need more music
need something to do
need someone

community service tml again
haiz sick and tired

today was boring
finished exams already
did nothing
ate nothing
played battleship
went to riverine
opened 2 bottle chivas
me, i, myself, wo, orh, aku, wa
$288 burn hole is wallet
but yats wallet always got hole so its ok
finished drinking then came home
slack awhile and hopefully ................
yeah so

going to feed my babes
tata

Exams finally over
need to drink
need to get over it
still cant take my mind off it

today will definately change me
never thought it will
i feel so much better

I tried to pray yesterday
pray for help
i started to tear
after thinking about wads happening
so i stopped and went to sleep

Woke up with a swollen throat
went for exams
wasnt as bad as yesterday
especially after last night
then went home changed
went to marina to buy jeans from zara
bought one normal jeans and one black jeans
then i went to town
went to orchard plaza to alter it
then i went over to meridien
met casey greg they all
then went to wisma
walked, ate
walked back
felt so sick
fever was coming in
throat swelled so much
even when i moved my neck it hurt
couldnt swallow
couldnt smoke
but i still did
then went to monster
played abit then went outside
sat outside food court
stoned till 930 and left home
thought of so many things
though the headache



i dont know how to tell you this
so ill put it on my blog here
at first i thought of it just as a past time
then after chatting with you
i felt totally different about it
i never thought i would want to get into a rs this so soon
especially after wad happened b4 this
but after chatting with you i felt different yet again
only one person knows wad i felt bout u
it was a different story that i told everyone else
he is the person i told u i can 100% put my trust in
i am a person who gets so jealous over small things
but i learnt my mistake from the past
i was able to put it all aside just for you
i was willing to go to church and quit all the bad habbits
i dont have a reason to anymore
maybe you dont know how fucked up i feel
u made me hate something i went for 2 times and was going to continue to go
maybe im just unlucky...
very unlucky.





Maybe Its Gods Will,
But Its Definately Yat's Wont



Never Mix;
Poon
Alcohol
Ciggerates
Shortage of sleep
Music
Late nights

with

Troubles at heart

you'll probably catch a bad flu

tata

Wad a night
exam today was shit again
tml should be the same
just came back from cheekys
drank till my back hurt
head hurt
great night ruined
although it was ruined by the dickfest
i still wanted to have a good time
din have the mood to dance
thinking about it made it worst
but i couldnt stop
just reached home i havent studied
dont think i will tonite
not in the mood to do anything

tata

TODAY IS EXAM!!!
SOON IS EXAM
IT & WSQ
STUDY STUDY STUDY
CANT
TONIGHT GO DRINK!
ALL THE WAY

TILL THE DAY I DIE
I WILL KEEP TRYING TO FLY
WHISKEY IS MADE WITH RYE
ITS HARD TO SAY GOOD BYE
IT JUST MAKES ME CRY
MY MOUTH FEELS VERY DRY
I LET OUT A BIG SIGH
PORNCHAI IS A THAI
THERE ARE CLOUDS IN THE SKY
I COULD JUMP FROM SO HIGH
WITHOUT SAYING GOOD BYE
IM NOT GOING TO TRY
IF YOU DO YOU WILL SAY HI
THE MAN IS JUST A BIG LIE
WHY DOESNT HE JUST GO AND DIE


im a wrapper

tata

i dunno wad i did
you wont even tell
it feels like the past
being replayed
it does feel the same


couldnt slp yesterday
i lost my book
i couldnt study
i didnt study
i stayed till 4 waiting
still nothing


today i woke up
had this splitting headache
felt nauseas on the way to school
tried to puke in the toilet
then i went for the test
then i had no idea at all
how to do the paper

i need to study hard
but i cant get it out of my mind

Such a long time never blog
nice previous post hanging there so long
so far many things have happened
today this morning i went to school and halfway there
my friend called me and said got no lessons
then i went home and thats now
later going for interview at sketches at MS
then yesterday we were suppose to tan at sentosa
went over to gregs house at 10
but no one woke up
so we din go
but luckily
jothi just come back
then we went town
suppose to watch movie
in the end never again
as usual
then the gyming has been resumed
after the malaysia trip
and the pooning
gained 2kg from pooning lor


too lazy to blog bout the earlier few days
going to take a nap
and feed my babes
toodles

today boring day as usual
went for interview
quite good
next monday interview at sats
next week got interview with suntec chef
super sian

then guess wad i heard
i heard su jia qi is going to malaysia
eh ur bitch finaly let u go ar
i can guess wad happened
she dun let u go
then after i blogged
she let u go
so does ur mother not let u go?
fuck her lah
if u go overseas who fuck ur mother
ur sister your maid or ur bitch
u lucky i got probation
if not u dunid think about doing anything
u sure u can last 4 days without sex ornot
no girls going leh
cannot ask if can have sex as friends leh loser
u want friends with benefits?
how bout fuck ur family with benefits



the fresh foods have been delayed
again
maybe jia qi should poon
it will make him more normal
but too bad
fucking loser has no money
eh jia sorry i missed your birthday
maybe i should wish u a fucking belated birthday
the day ur mother shit u out
if im her i will regret
but i wont want to be tt loser
eh when u free
maybe i should give your a birthday present
i just want to buy you kfc
or have u saved enough already
fucking dog

there is a a delay in my order of fresh foods
super sians

well now i shall start bitching
eh su jia qi
u got money go malaysia meh
or u go there buy malaysia pack
u cant go because ur mother dun allow
or u dont have money
or u scared ur the only loser there
and feel left out
eh loser let me tell you
dun come msg eh i never say anything
wtf u post tt for
u think you 2 deserve for me to keep my words
come ill spread my ass and u can lick it clean for me
come suck my dick bitches
go and save money for kfc
try macs macs is cheaper just $2 for one burger
not enough come beg me
last time ur slut taught me
to be kind to those who have no money
and spare some if they work for it
i would surely spare u lots of change
if u come to me and beg me
dont need play music
dunid sell tissue paper
just come and beg me
fucking loser stay away from my friends
fucking corrupter
go corrupt ur family and that whore
dont come and fuck with my friends
u bored can go fuck ur baby sister in the nose
since you so despo for sex
i doubt she will remember in the future
fucking whore
The End


wad a great day
went gym today
went town today
copied in the test today
thats all

gonna feed my babes
sayunara

so long no blog
everyday was same as usual
school town gym
my ciggerate box broke
dunno wad else
going to fish the 1 more time before the fishing pond closes
anyone want to join?
everyday is so boring so far
not after today
after today i can get good slp at night
im going to toh ka liao si qiao piao

gonna go wash up for school
then feed my babes
tata

yesterday
i woke up early in the morning
to go fish
i went later abit
cuz i wanted to slp more first
only slept like 3 hours in total
was playing dota and chatting b4 i went to bed
then i went to marina
the place was flooded
then i went in
there was haikal, kai, greg, small mei
haikal the bugis
kai the mud
greg the bangla
small mei the china doll

then we went fishing
the chinese beat the malays
everyone caught expensive fishes

haikal had a $35 sea bass
kai had a $35 pomfret
greg had a $17.50 mang jack & 17.50 dunno wad fish
then i caught a $35 mang jack & $20 ang kueh
the small mei never fish

then we ate chicken rice
then went sent small mei to kallang
then went home with greg
then i toh all the way
till the rest came
then we played awhile
then they took last bus home
then i went to slp

then today i woke up for school
went to school
toh like hell
then went home
no one was going out
waiting for greg and casey to come over now


to early to feed babes
tatas

last few days have been the same
town gym slack
i feel so happy now


poon ftw
it takes away the troubles
all the troubles seem so far away

a payer is a player
toh arh toh

i know wad i am now jun
i am butcher
any fresher you have to slaughter it yourself

fucking bitch venelyn ong
dont go ard changing all my passwords
fucking whore
your parents are so nice
why did they shit you out

i said i wont if u wont
i saw ur post
i thought it was me
maybe it was
maybe you just wanted to cover it
fucking whore
if u talked to me nicely i would say sorry and remove
you talk to me with that attitude
fuck urself
go and masturbate with your massager again
fucking whore
pimple at the cibai

why you change your blog to only invited
scared ar fucking bitch
u think i dunno you scold me issit
change all my passwords


when you fall
i will take a cab down
look at you
and spit at you
i will pity you
bred to be good
born to be a dog
such a good family
wad a cheap slut

today i just drank
1 hippe drink
half dozen chicken wings
1 butter scotch
1 ciggerate
1 peach snchap
1 butterscotch
1 cherry shooter
2 ciggerates
1 cherry shooter
1 brain hammerage
toh arh toh
1 ciggerate
half dozen chicken wings
one hippie drink
2 shots of dunno wad
3 dollar shots
then went home
techno ftw
tml toh arh toh

you want to play this way
i play with you
to you im the loser?
to everyone else?
you wan join in i play with you 2
i paid for sex with you
so i dont really care anymore

su jia qi just be happy i dont msg venelyn ong
like u did before to you know who
i din msg "hey can we have sex?"
i din msg "can we have sex, i want to try as friends, pls?"
i know why u are doing this
your a fucking despo
and venelyn ong
your so stupid
i hope you suffer
jiaqi, i dont need to hope
i know you will
i will go and tell everyone of my friends
wad happened to you
what the real story is
so they wont believe your fucking bullshit story
you still can tell everyone that you dont know why
FUCK U UNDERSTAND
FUCK UR BABY SISTER
FUCK UR MOTHER
FUCK UR FATHER
FUCK UR SISTER
FUCK UR MAID
FUCK UR GRANDMA ON WEEK ENDS

and venelyn ong
dont think i wont say anything cuz u have a cibai
fucking hell you want to talk i talk with you
just because u have big breast
doesnt mean you must play with other peoples lives
your breast are big
your breast are lop sided
your breast are like jely
your ass is small
wad a wierd bitch
everyone you have been with knows
cuz your a fucking slut
fucking you like sponge bob square pants?
i know why
cuz your a fucking sponge bob square face
be glad your on a diet and know that your fat
cuz actually to tell you something i never told you before
you suck at having sex
you dont do anything for me
you get me all aroused then leave me there
i get you into an orgasm
you just lie there and " oh my damn shiok"
then just continues and sleeps in bed
how many times have you helped me?
2? out of 1 year?
go eat shit lah
you dont even dare to suck my dick
you have to learn
cuz tt bastard your with
he likes to cum in girls mouths
so you better learn to suit him and make him happy
you want to play with me i can play with you to the fullest
fucking despo dogs
gou nan nue

i hope you had your fun birthday
omg go sentosa? go sentosa for wad
you got money to spend meh
you pay for the entry ticket then
no money to even buy water
go and lie under the sun
its free
take a shower under the rain
its free
go and have sex in the sea
i did it before with her
its free but it sux
walk out of sentosa
its free

im so glad that everything ard is happening the way it is happening
some people call me loser
whose the losers now

REMEMBER
I WASNT THE ONE WHO CAME TO YOU AFTER YOU AND GREG BROKE UP
YOU CAME TO ME
AND WE STARTED THE RELATIONSHIP
WHEN U KISSED ME IN BED FOR NO REASON
THEN YOU MADE ME CARESS YOU
AND YOU MADE ME FINGER YOU
SO JIA WILL YOU STILL SAY I TOOK HER AWAY FROM GREG
LIKE WHAT YOU DID TO ME?
YOU TWO DESERVE EACH OTHER
BOTH WORTHLESS

today was a good day
yesterday casey jothi and jasper stayed over
then me and jothi slept in my room
and jasper and casey slept in the other
me and jothi talked for 2 hours in bed
then we had lots of fun talking about stuff
and i told him everything tts happening
and he told me wad happened last time
then we woke up in the afternoon
played computer
ate lunch
then jothi went home for tution
then me casey and jasper
we went down to gym then to swim
then so far i have lost 7.5kg
since i started gymming
good good :)
then casey went home to change
then we went to helmys house for his open house
the long awaited soup tulang
then sir hisham was there also
then ate soup tulang
and mee soto i tink
then we sat outside to chat and sing
then we talked smoked and sang
then went home
and i just reached home


i hope your having your fun time now
i just hear the stories about the past
the things you have done
i realised why your doing this
why do you have to be like this
i hear tt you tell my friends you dont know why i scold you?
u say you dont know why i scold you untill liddat?
dun lie to my friends
dun act inoccent and cheat my friends
i will fucking kill you
and dont go around tell people i started it when you scolded me first
you want to talk back about me now?
you want to solve this problem between us?
you kneel down and beg me
i might consider
you want to talk back and cheat my friends i can do worst
worst than wad i did before
and you will definately regret it
all in all
dont fuck up my friends
dont fuck up other peoples lives


i dont like to be like that
going to feed my babes now
nite nites

last few days were fun
gymed everyday
swam everyday
apple cidered everyday
but din blog everyday
on sat we went to cuscaden
there was me, casey, hanyang, zhenwen and justin.
then we ate our food
there was only one mee goreng
so sad
then we shared one dozen of chicken wings
and dinner was fucking good
then we had 2 jugs of beer
then zhenwen and hanyang left for lido first
then me casey and justin went up to chips
cuz we wanted to drink more
then we asked for a recomendation
and we had a HIPPIE DRINK
it was so fucking good
then we went out for a smoke
then we went back in each one took one shot
me and justin had a butterscotch
and casey had a peach schnap
it was all fucking good
then we walked back to lido to meet the rest
we were all fucking high and happy
then we planned this week already
this week
we will gym everyday as normal
then we will go to drink on one of the days
budget $70
and on thurs we are going to helmy's open house
makan soup TULANG SIOL
cant wait
then yah
sunday was soso
i went for my cso
then i went to town
had a nice dota match
i pwned
then had dinner in town
then went home to gym
yeah thats all
and today no one woke me up for school
so im just going to town later yup

going to feed myself
then feed my babes
tata

today was a good day
lazy to blog
super tired
so i shall sum up everything

school
town
dota
friends
laksa
apple cider
gym
swimming
now

going to feed my babes
nite nites

My ambition
is to be the director of f&b in singapore
but it will take a long time
so before that i am going to study finish and get my diploma
then i want to go work
then do my ns
then complete my bond
then i will maybe work for 2 or 3 more years
then maybe further my studies in switzerland
but in the end i still want to be back in singapore
then i shall work my way from there on

the best is still strike toto
then dunid to work already


this is my it lesson work

yesterday i started drinking apple cider
i tried making one cup for myself
i couldnt find honey so i din sweeten it
i made one cup
i drank it all in one go
cuz it smelt like shit
then it was so sour
i couldnt even breathe
i almost vomited
it was so sick i swear
then today i drank one cup with honey
so much better

DIET FTW

today was a good day
today i din go school
cuz my mom tried to wake me up
and she slap my hand
and i got fucking angry
so i just slept on
anyways todays school was going to end at 11+
3 hours of school so its ok
then i went over to meet greg and casey
played abit of dota
then went down to town
then there were alot of people
then we played dota
jothi greg and casey VS me jasper porn zhenwen
we won
then came back home
jasper greg and casey came over
then aaron and brian came later
went down to gym
had a chat with kingkong
then went to swim
then came up then everyone left soon after

just fed my rabbits
poor babes have no more food
left the shit tt they dont like to eat
then they keep looking at me with tt look
but i couldnt do anything
going to buy more food for them tml

going to slp now
toodles

today school was ok
i left before the last lesson
then i went to town
went to meet everyone
came home chionged gym with casey
then had a nice long chat in the pool
with 2 ang mohs who were quite hot
but they were like taking photos in the pool
so their kinda wierd
then came up watched some you tube
cooked supper for casey
then they just left

today i realised
what are true friends, close friends and good friends
theres actually a formula to understand this theory easily
Close Friends = True Friends + Good Friends
i havent been one but there are 2 people
who i know are to me close friends
they are brothers
they helped me so much

they helped you too
dont think because i dont want to go farther with this matter
its because of u
u think i give a fuck?
my close friend has had a talk with me today
he made me understand
maybe i was just too angry
i acted irrashionaly
but i did not act wrongly
thats for a fact
after today
i realised who are the friends
who are the losers

Su Jia Qi
to you maybe im a loser
and maybe to many others
to me? you can go fuck your baby sister with your mom and ur sis licking your ass
youve always been the loser
grow up
maybe you should join shatec
maybe its a cooking school maybe its shit to you
but it matures ppl
and thats what you need
oh im sorry maybe your trying to keep the wave length
cuz u failed your fucking N levels
and oh wow what a loser 17 year old sec 4 normal acad?
other people who fail Os its nothing Os are hard
Ns? ha fucking loser

i may be a loser
i know im not in the shit situation as u are in
so now, theres no point in you studying
since your already a loser
go and cry about your results
go and find tt bitch of yours

someday when you get confronted by her dad
i will be looking down on you
laughing at a loser
i have money to spend like free
so wad even eating kfc you cant pay for her
fucking loser
go and beg from me i would gladly pity you and spare you $2.10
you can buy her cheese fries
better than her paying for herself
so tell me now
am i a loser for isolating myself from everyone because of her?
or are u the loser!

one day when you have gone through wad i have
and you understand how i felt
you come back to us
i will spit on ur fucking face
and tell you to fuck off
i wont even pity you
because you turned your back on us and especially me
and threw knives backwards
you dont know the shit you have gotten into
youve changed
a girl can do that
but the guy has the power to choose
i was foolish before
you will be soon too



going to feed my babes
tata

today is a fucking good day

i lost 2 fuckers as friend

and it feels good

well school was soso today

quite ok had some boring moments

but quite some funny moments

today i was asked to change my blog temp

so i did and this is wad ive done

then i went down to town

met casey and helmy

then stayed there awhile

then we went home

stayed upstairs quite awhile

then we went down to gym

gym today was ok

quite packed

but they left soon after

then we went swimming

and guess WHAT?

RAY.BAN

i found it when i was swimming laps

he just wanted to be like me

dontcha

its fucking Genuine shit

fucking happy

then we came up

i made supper for casey and helmy

YattyMee

EggWithCornBeef

&

CornBeefWith Egg

well today was a rather fine day

results of diet plan

BreakFast: Nil

Lunch: nuggets

Dinner: 3 pieces of bread and corned beef

well going to feed my babes

going to slp nows

tata

you want to do this ok
ill play with you wadever game you want to


you know why i spent all those money on you?
you dont know how much i loved you
you dont know wad i would do for you
i wanted to use the only thing i have to spare
just to try and keep you with me
love sacrifices self respect
i loved you so much i wanted you back even though wad you did
so FUCK YOU
if i think i treated u as a prostitute
i didnt but i do now
go and fuck him who cares


you want me to tell you how i know?
my source is my eyes
i saw your photos in his fucking phone
so dont bullshit
and tell people you started after
trying to save face?
FUCK U BITCH
fucking whore


you dont think this is a game?
what the fuck are u playing
your sick game


you hate to do this?
FUCK U RIGHT IN UR FUCKING FACE BITCH
you dont care
ur a cold hearted slut
go and club
go and drink
go and fuck ard
i hope you get the worst


you ask why only now
why only after i wanted to help you
why i wanted you 2 to be together
my problem is my soft heartedness
its only i realise after i talked to my Friends
and thought about it seriously


i still din mind if just shut the fuck up
and we would be friends
SO SHUT YOUR FUCKING FACE
FUCK THE PRICK YOUR WITH
if i din love your family
i would have scolded them
but i do love them


wads to a prostitute other than earning money
following me to lock up
following me to court?
to earn money what the fuck is tt compared

TELL THEM WHAT I HAVE SAID
JUST TELL THEM
i have never said anything bad
at most i said fuck them lah i dont care anymore
i din even mean it
i said it to you cuz i wanted to go out to town
i said it to you so you will let me out
to meet MY FRIENDS

so whose the one who hated them?
even if they beat me
i wouldnt do anything back
ive been friends with them 4 or more years

you know i put friends in front of family
even the problem i have with them
is because i dun want u to be angry
that they come over my house to party
dun tell me you din ask for me to do it
you give me that wadeva voice
you give me the anything lah attitude


SO READ THIS CLEAR
FUCK YOU VENELYN ONG
FUCK HIM SU JIA QI
stay away from my friends
dont try and fit in
dont try and seduce my friends just to get close
FUCK OFF UNDERSTAND

i din want to go this far
you pushed me
when i was in love i din have a limit
i have a fucking limit now
and i have a fucking temper
so go and fuck yourself
and fuck off k just fuck off
you think im not over
ive just let it all out
you wont see me posting about this
unless its a reply

FUCK YOU TWO DOG COUPLE GO DIG A GRAVE AND FUCK TILL YOU DIE
dont force me
a broken baloon can still burn
i can go so much farther

this is my school it thing
she taught us how to make a blog
while im crazy taxi'ing
then now i have to post my ambitions

my ambition is to become singapore director of food and beverage
the end

theres no way i will ever believe
i have my info
all along i thought i was wrong
t hats why i saved 800 for u to spent
if only i knew
i would have a fucking good fishing rod
but all along i wasnt
thinking about this
i knew it was happening so i try and stop it
by making you go out less with them
but u say im overprotective?
and broke up with me because of that
i dunno why lah but i dont think you have any self respect
you knew you werent going to be back with me
and you can spend the 600 of the 800 i brought out tt day
maybe you were only with me in the first place because of that
you talk about trust
when u check my phone can
i duwan u get angry
i wan check urs? you get angry
wtf is trust to you
dont talk to me bout these bullshit

fuck it k
if we continue quarrelling on like this in the end i will win
im not scared to
but i dont want to
if u want to just tell me
i would gladly comply

i got a new mouse
i got a new keyboard
played rugby today
going to rugby more often
need more ppl
who wan play can tell me

going on a strict diet
doing well so far
i got ready 3 packets of gastric meds

i dunno wads trust when i knew it was going to happened
i dunno wads doubt when it was going to happen
i dunno why i keep knowing it was going to happen
oh yah maybe its when you dont want me to with you when we're out
oh yah maybe its also when you hugged him
oh yah maybe you like to let him touch
oh yah maybe you like to let him hold your stuff instead of me
oh yah maybe you like to go out and drink with other people, especially when im gone and never there
oh yah maybe you like to do things behind my back
i dunno why im doing this
i dont want to quarrel over this shit
ive treated my friends the best
even when i fell apart with aizaad they all
i would never talk bad behind their back
i would never curse them
i would never do anything to screw their life up

you two wont have me to support you all
never will

going to feed my babes
then going to slp

remember i asked u once
do you have anything going on with him
you told me no

remember you told me to wait till your exams were over
no lie?

it doesnt matter anymore to me
it doesnt concern me
and i dont really care who its going to affect next time
i just cant get over it
cuz im regretting
i dont care about him anymore
dont care who gets hurt
i just feel really stupid now

well they have talked it out
maybe he understands
and maybe he is ok with it now
but im not
never going to be
anyways its over
and im over it
anyways we'll still be friends no worries

well today the talk was shit
so much shit
my dad only came in and wasted one ciggerate today
i put in 60k for u
then went out played dota awhile
got thrashed
watched soccer at the hawker
then everton scored against liverpool
and xw lost money
and din want to watch anymore haha
then went home
did some home gymming
going to slp already its late
lorr i feel down
haha but i wont bother you
just gonna have an early night


going to feed my babes
tata

my dad came back
just for some stupid talk
3 days
6 trips 10k
just for this stupid talk
hes happy to see me and my mom
he came in smoked 3 sticks
ard 4-6 puffs and he put it out
and took it out more to smoke
waste of ciggerates
but i love him
i think he just wants me to
have less ciggerates to smoke
then he talked to me about stuff
then he asked me this question

" have you met other girlfriends?"
i said no
then he said
" dont worry
sometimes its like that
some girls just want to play
play with your life
then screw up your life
and there are some friends
they might do things behind your back
you cant choose friends
you find them and
you can only find people
that u can trust
but still you cant trust them
everyone will be your friend
all friends will be different
even the my friends are not good
you have to help them
and they will help you when you need it"


wad a coincidence
tts just wads happening
im thinking too much

going to make myself
a B52
night caps are good

now i know everything
everything you did behind my back
things wont be the same now
still friends
just not like before
you really hurt me
now i regret
not like before
not because i din treat u better
but i regret tt
i treated u too good

i din finish the baileys
but its finishing soon

going to feed My Babes

i dunno wad to feel
to be happy tt i made the family like me
or to be like sad tt i have caused all these trouble for u 2
i wanted to make it up
you dont want me to
maybe i should just be happy tt at least i tried and still gave a shit

i dont want to
it makes my head hurt

my life is falling apart again
everything hurts
i need to sleep it all away

i dont feel well
i think i need to drink
alot

yesterday was an off day
from GSS
but today after community service
need to start again
tired like fuck


its not tt i care anymore
when ur stomache is empty i wont feel hungry anymore
when you injure urself i wont feel pain anymore
if u are sick i wont be the one to feel uncomfortable anymore
its just i thought of the past
dont let this be a misunderstanding
and fuck everything up for u all

today i made dinner
kinda a failure
still quite happy
good night all
fed my babes

i dont care anymore
but i still wanna cry

din really bother to blog
everyday for the past week has been the same
after school i meet casey
and we do our project GSS
without fail we have been going gym this whole week
and we thought of a way to stay in the sauna for very long
we brought a dvd player down and watched movies
haha, inside the sauna watching movies
niice

i just woke up and played with my babes
my mom keeps complaining tt when she wakes me up in the morning
im like a drunk
and when i think of it
there is a resemblence
like scolding people without knowing
and not knowing wad i scold her

gonna get ready for school

these few days
i just dont have the motivation to blog

well today i slept my whole day away
casey and greg came over at night
went to play squash
went to gym
no time to swim
had quite some fun
blisters getting worst

i realised i smoke alot when im alone at home
ok anyways
fed my babes already
i even let marshmellow out to run ard the house
gonna go slp school tml morning


i keep thinking bout it
i dont dare to ask you
im afraid it will end
i just have to bluff myself
i just hope you know
i feel useless now

if only there wasnt this problem
this problem tt keeps me apart
i wish my wishes come through
who doesnt

just started school
back into school
so far away
so boring
lessons are like retarded
imagine sitting in school the whole day
doing nothing but listen
anyone would just slp
ima concentrate on my studies
and do well
i hope i can
sitting at home stoning till i rot
i need to drink badly

i din want to lie
to you so i asked
i din want to hurt anyone else
i was dissapointed
i put myself down

today i went for my comprehensive exam
i planned a bell pepper soup
but they din have bell pepper
i lucky drawed chicken breast
so stressed when i was doing it
in the end
i did chicken rollard with madeira wine mushroom sauce with snow peas and herb mash
it turned out worst than i thought it would
then came back home
went to swim
to destress
to gossip
to gain knowledge


after yesterday i hate myself
i planned it so well
but i couldnt do it
im not even sure my current plan is working
so dissapointed
my life sux
i hate my life
no matter wad a good day it was today
i still had to keep my tears inside
still have to do my community service
fuck my life

its the last day in charcoal for us today
and we decided to take photos for memory
i will miss the place
my home when i was down in the dumps of my life



the things we do in the kitchen


thats the way i like it


the band of brothers


their the only ones i got
and their the best there is

today i set out
wanting to do something
i thought i would be able
to pluck my balls up
and do it
i couldnt
i waited and delayed
i missed the chance
i hate myself

today was an ok day
gastric pains whole day
bad mood
getting fucked here and there


time to feed babes
tml is my exam
stress is in the air

hope my plan works tml
such a bad mood
and i still have the stress
of the exam tml
i really let myself down
no one to share with but this page
my life sux

i think i slept at 1 plus
dunno wad time i started waking up
cant fall back aslp
my head is hurting
but i kept thinking bout it
tml im gonna do something
something ive never done
i cant help thinking bout it
i cant help worrying
i really hope it works out
i would do anything for it to work out
gonna have a smoke before i try to slp again

tata

just another fucked up day

time to feed babes

how i wish i saw her
i never believed in
horoscope
love calculators
and all that stuff
now i do after wad happened
it said jealousy
it came true
how was i to know
i tried
i just wish to give it a try tml hopefully i see her tml

today i think is the start of the rise
its getting better
today is a good day
something happened
which made me very happy
very very happy
then the day was fun except
my sir scolded me and my friends
for making pasta as in home made
and cooking it
then kena scold
then the day turn sian
then the rest was fun
went to meridien to cut hair
and again notice AGAIN
i went to cut the hair
then i sat down
he asked me how
i say i wan take the sides off
short also nvm
then he zzzhhap
liddat short enough?
i was just about to say
same as the bottom the whole side
then i was like
erm ok its nice
its like fucking short now
then i went to town to study
or more like research
then i went home
went to the gym
then i chiong
there were like 2 boxers inside
skipping rope
they toked to me
they told me they were spanish
so i told them
spanish fly
then they laugh and say i dirty mind
the they tell me im doing too fast
i told them ya
haste makes waste
but i was only stretching
then i tink i sprained my neck
then i went to the fucking sauna
read the news paper inside
then i tanked inside very long
and i when i stepped out
there were like 2 old ppl one old woman
inside the male changing room shower
luckily the door was closed
and there was an old man
and the old woman kept saying
gia towel lai, eh towel kakin
then the old man dan la wu lang
i was like wtf
i think they just finished with sex or something
but in the sauna
i blasted loudspeaker my mp3
maybe their deaf or something
and din know i was inside
and also i think the old woman was a cleaner in the condo
then i went out
i stuffed everything into my bag when i left the toilet
so i stood outside and looked for my ciggerate
then i looked for my lighter
took quite awhile
then the 2 old ppl came out
the old woman say i kaypo
why wait and see who in the toilet
i was like
cibai wa gia hoon ai sio
then she started scolding me
i was like ok shut the fuck up
and if i call the police u can go face ur family and your friends
then i walked off they were like standing there stunned
then i walked back home took a shower and yeah its now
and one more thing
someone added me on friendster
so i msg
hi who are you
then i recieved a reply
hi im doing good thanks
i laughed like mad i swear
ok
well good day at least

time to feed babes
and slp soon
nites

today was the same as yesterday
except today there was an event
i was scolding some idiot
then i shout i pull your mother cibai
everyone look at me
i turn ard my trainer looking at me
like wtf then i scared i just laugh

today i also tried to make a 2 colour soup
red and green bell pepper soup
very happy with results
i kinda tastes like alphabet soup
and im gonna do it for my comprehensive exam
its quite style gonna try it in kitchen tml
gonna slp now early work tml

time to feed babes
nights

if i was a friend of me
i would cry for me
if i knew wad my life was like
but i really think
if there are only ups and no downs
in my life
it would be so fun and everyone would want my life
but the troubles and the hurts
just screw everything up

today was ok
a below average day

gonna go feed my babes
nights

i think im at the lowest point of my life
i dont know why
or wad i did
its really like its not getting worst
but its definately not getting better


thinking my makes my head hurt
so does my heart
i need to fish

today i did my community service
at angmokio libary
tired like fuck
another reason to hate the smelly indians
you know theres like a few types of indians
some are nice some are shit
well today i went to the libary
then i was shelving the books
i was sick
so i coughed quite alot
then i had running nose
then i kept sobbing and coughing
then some indian woman
came and scold me for coughing
i tot she was asking where were the books or something
then i was like wtf
then i scold her she scold me
she complain then she left
then i scold her when she walked out
i shouted ur mother gave birth to you through her ass
then she walk back in
i tink she wanted to slap me or something
then the in charge there
who i was suppose to report to
ask her to leave before she get trouble
its like in ang mo kio libary the doing comunity service
is like those type of ppl
then yeah
i went home then ima go take a nap go to the gym
then feed my babes
tata


everytime i past some places
i still think

today i went to see a doctor
then i went to town to cut hair
then i sat outside the food court
for like 4 hours doing nothing
then ended up going home
and not doing anything
im going to slp
fucked up day today

gonna feed my babes
nites

today wasnt a good day
i dont know if sharing with you made it better
but till i have someone to share things with
this will do
thx though
good luck in advance
i meant wad i said

today i watched
i pronounce you chuck and larry
super funny i swear
its quite a nice show

then after the show
i went down to meet my friends
and we ate at my friends ec
it was ok lah
but everything was sour
sour appetiser
sour soup
sour sherbet
sour duck sauce
sour desert ( helmy make one )
then we ate from 7 to almost 10
then i came home
rested and bathed
so tired

time to feed babes
nite nite

feel sick these few days
still tanking through my make ups
feel like shit
coughing and weezing
i cant even breathe properly
i cant even go into the freezer to get things
cuz i wont be able to breathe
scared to contaminate food
taking 7 medicines at one time

went to work yesterday
then i left after i finished with my staff meal
i went home to sleep
then my friends came over
and we went swimming
i felt much better
then we went to slack in the sauna
then we went back to swim
then we stole a ball
and we played with it
then we went up and played nintendo wii
had so much fun
then had dinner
and they left soon after that

i realised
when im having fun
i dont feel sick
its like when im out
im super tired
but when i sit at my com
i can just go on forever

today im going to work
then when i finished ima go catch a movie
then ima meet my friends at night to go for my friends ec
looking forward to it
cant wait

time to feed babes
and go to work


iit isnt easy for me either
no one knows how i feel now
if i was as sick as this at that time
i would have just left the world
trust me i would

feeling like shit
i still went to work today
i just came back
and i feel so fucking uncomfortable
every cough hurts like fuck
ever sob hurts my nose
its like leaking even when i playing psp

still have to do make ups
still have to plan my community services
still have to go to wake up early for work tml

fucked up life

today i went to work
did my make up
came home rest
not feeling well

i thought back and thought bout my life
i have the most fucked up life there is
i got into the wrong road since sec 2
i smoke
i took drugs
i drank
i have probation for my crimes
i have not been good
i owe many make up lessons for ponning school
i have tatoos
i lost someone
i have a somehow broken family
i just want to change now
i have a chance

if i could redo my life
i wouldnt want it this way
i would not have loved you so much
i would not have commited crimes
i wouldnt have smoked
i wouldnt have went the wrong way
i wouldnt have let my family down
well thats wad they all say once its all done

i dont want to see you go this way
hate me if u want
it doesnt matter to me anymore
i dont need an extra friend
i have the best in the world
i just want to repay you
for wad i did before
i want you to be safe
i cared
you never appreciated anything i did
well your choice
everyone makes their own choice
and everyone makes their mistakes
u said you would take care of urself
you are heck care of urself
i dont blame u
hate me for all i care
i meant well
up to you how you think
and wad you think im doing this for
i wish i could say sorry to them
but i dont want to see them
i miss them
i miss their care for me
i hope everything goes well for u


i have accepted the fact
your accepting the fictions

i sat at home doing nothing the whole day
feed the babes
and time to slp

hope you all will get into trouble
you wont change if u dont
i know ive been through it before
it worked for me
i dont want to see friends get into shit

one day you might get raped
you might fget sick
you might just ruin your life
you might get injured
just hope you dont

here are the photos we took on that day



i was trying to slp in the bright sun



so was he


it was bright, very bright
and there were dragon boaters


greg found a broom


actually he made it


we were bored
he thought it looked nice

i went fishing with greg
cuz aaron couldnt make it
so he stayed over so we could
wake up at 4 to go get ready to fish
then we were fucking tired
so we cannot ton
so we went to set alarms
my mp3, my phone, his phone, my alarm clock
then we made it and woke up
then we woke up
we look at each other like idiots
then we packed up and got ready
then we set off
reached there at 6
was like super dark there
so we wanted to have a smoke first
but the lighter ran out of gas
but there was abit left
so little cant even see the gas
or maybe it was too dark
then rest awhile
then the sun was rising
we started to fish
then we kept spinning
boring then people came
then they went to the other side
then we stayed
then went down to the water
which was very slippery
then we got bored and hungry
we tried to call macs
but they din want to send
so we left at 10
went back to toa payoh shop
then put down things ate
then slack then thought of where to go
reservoir or my house downstairs
then we think very long
then went to my house
then we slack watch aladin
then rest
then got ready
then went down to my house downstairs
we went behind first
we cycled
then we went to the behind and started to fish
then we fish and played and played and fish
then no fish
we went to stadium that side
had some fun
cycling
then we fish and stuff
then greg cycled back to my house
to buy drinks
then he came back
then we sat down eat
then we eat the potato chips
then the wind blow one time all drop out
then we were like beggars cuz the chips we nice
then start picking those that were on top
and those that were big
then we went to fish
then tio sunkok on the stupid china mans bubu
then greg went down then walked over to get it
then do alot shit
then he got out
then we sat down
then smoked
and chat like alot things
then we chat fucking long
toking bout everything
then i we slack
i swear its the nicest place to relac
then we went home had pizza
then he left
and i tink i fell aslp before he left
but yeah
then now i just woke up
and i ate a moon cake with alcohol inside

if any1 knows any1 who can drive boat
or got lobang for boat that not too exx
tell me i wan go boat fishing
if the driver know where got good spot even better

ok time to feed babes
tatas

forgot to blog yesterday
i tink i was too tired
well yesterday i woke at 6
went to work
finished work wanted to do make up
but in the end didnt
cuz stock for salmon came in
and they need scaling and filleting
so i din stay
then i left
and i went to fishing buddy
bought stuff
looked ard
in the end i bought like fucking $34 lure
but quite style
then $16 lure not bad
then small box to put swivels and stuff
bought big box to put my lures
cuz mines too small
then after buying everything
i went to suntec
then bought more weights
to add on cuz like too light
then went buy java chip
from starbucks
then left for home
then i came home packed my stuff
excited bout today and tml
then i went to eat dinner
diet so it was some gua and lean meat and rice
then i slept at 8
i woke up at 3 then i realised i din blog and havent played
yeah
thats bout it
gonna wash up and play with my babes


somehow i dont feel anything anymore

today was a bad day
i woke up at 530
to get ready for work
but i couldnt get up
my back hurt like fuck
i guess im getting old
well i thought of going down
at 10 to do make up also
then i still felt like shit
so i din go
then i went to slp till afternoon
then woke up see if got anywhere to go
then dun haf
so i went to suntec after dinner
alone
to buy add on weights to my dumbbell
then i went and there were like
millions of people at the taxi stand
then i went to the shop
bought my stuff
then i walked ard
then i left for home
saw a fucking indian
trying to be stylo
go put pencil in her hair
like wtf then i cut their queue
for cab lah
then i come home
then i chionged
time to feed babes
night night


big sweet land
eng wah
shilin
royce
soon ill forget
its already in the past

today was i might say an ok day
din feel well since i was sick
but i still went to work
then i felt like shit at first
but as the day went on
and as the day got funner
i felt better
Lan Gui heros huat ar

well after work we went to yakun
and we at the toast and dip
its like toast with a chocolate dipping
wah if everyday eat will tio diabetes
but still very nice
then we chat like from 230 to 530
just sitting at the smoking area

then i left
because according to my tide chart
the tide will start moving at 630
so i went home to prepare
prepared everything i walked all the way
today was shit
not even a bite
and i lost a lure
cuz i try geh siao go cast near the bridge
then tio sunkod
but it wasnt my favourite
then i went ard trying all the spots
then i met a malay man
he very kind
my back pain so i sat down and chat with him
he works at a vessel
then he wear his one piece suit
then i kept chatting with him and din bother fishing
super boring day
he was very nice
then he asked me at the same time i asked him
at the EXactly same time
you wan ciggerate?
then we laugh
then we tok about alot of stuff fishing stuff
then i tried once in awhile
but not even a bite
then i left for home ard 10
then i took a cab home
cuz my back was aching so badly
and i missed the bus
then it gets worst
i reached home and i realised
i ran out of ciggerates
so i sms my mom to buy for me
so now im waiting and im bored
just ate dinner
anyways time for my babes dinner
tata

no point of
freedom
time
if no one to spend it with
well its better than before

today was a bad day
i woke up and i felt like shit
so i slept on
woke up ard 1
then i went to see a doc
and i stopped by at beach road
there got one fishing shop
the choices are not wide
but i bought a few
then i went home
went to gym awhile
chiong like mad
but due to time constrain
because of the tide rise
i did not go sauna
then i packed up
with only my rod and my pouch
i went to the stadium there
the end that i discovered
i went and started fishing
then i tio a few bites
the fishes were quite big
but they din stay till they reached land
so yeah damn sian
gonna try everytime
well at least when the time is right
or at least when the tide is right
then now im home and watching bambii2
like so retarded
ok going to feed babes
tata

today was an ok day
woke up late
woke up at 530 instead of 5
then rushed
but i still only washed up dressed up packed up
and left at 6
then had breakfast
im not sure why
but we were suppose to reach there at 6
well gregs dad had a friend
hes super good at fishing
hes a poor lee kuan yew
then we went to saf yacth club
then we went to bedok reservoir
then we went to seletar reservoir
then we went to eat prata
then we went to toa payoh fishing shop
to buy stuff cuz we had not fished enough
then we went to my house downstairs to fish
wah damn sian
burnt like fuck
then went to corner with aaron
then i got bites and i saw it was a big fish
but it kept runing away
couldnt set the hook properly
then i keep trying
became super tired but i was excited
in the end
i cast at the side hoping for better chance
then tio stuck
on the fucking china dog construction worker
his hand line
wah cibai dulan
he there i sure fuck him
then we went home
at the sea bass we caught tt day
super nice
then went to bath
then they left soon after that
then it was now
i ma go feed my babes
then i go slp

good day good nights

i have decided to continue blogging
cuz i realise there are still friends
and their the most dear
today i went to town
and i found more
played my first game of dota since to long
and we won
then went eat dinner with gregs parent
then toked about tmls fishing trip
well we ate then we left
we left for toa payoh
to look for lures spoons and jigs
took forever to decide which to use
then i left for home
then thought bout things
lots of things
feel so much better
and i went out to get a drink
and all my babes were staring at me
then i looked and i realised
my mom din feed them
so i fed them they were so happy

well time to slp
3 hours to slp and wake up

good day
and
good night

dont worry i take back everything
you will still be my brother from a deffrent mother
and of cuz father
good luck
i just hope u all dont keep anything from me
we are in the same situations
still and forever will be best friends
ecxept it has changed positions 2 times already
nothing in this world shall break us apart
even i die i will bring u 2 down with me

i miss everyone

just fed my babes
hope today will be a good day too
ive decided to not blog anymore
since theres no point
no friends to read
ok anyways
as some1 said who cares about now
when theres a future
well i hope there is

i dunno why ur doing this to me
i dunno wad i did wrong
i really wanted to make it right
never had the chance
now ur doing this to me
i dunno wad to do
i give up everything
you them us
i really want to start again
if only u would give me a chance
maybe its because of him
not him him but u should know who
he has been saying things
think i dont know
i know because of so many things
i know many things
because of him
i dont care anymore
i cant care anymore
i dont wanna care anymore
i thought u all were my friends
i thought u cared and toked to me
pity me? maybe
well no more friends to be
just need to find
new friends new life
have fun guys
dont get into trouble

and you take care of urself
dont starve urself
money is meant to buy things
not for hiding or saving

good bye everyone
i miss the old times
really alot

today i recieved info
that the idiot we always whacked
gavin goh the one in the video
told his mother i whack him
till orh ceh tua tua tad
then the mother say want to come down
if it happens again
but he scared like fuck
ask other ppl tell me
well we always treated him as a good friend
better than others much better

anyways
today work was good
very little ppl
very fun
very good people

then i came home late
had whipped up myself a very good drink
very tired from it now
gonna play awhile more
FEED BABIES!!!!
huat arh
ok fuck it
tata

today i woke up
i felt bad
i felt very bad
maybe im falling sick

anyways i woke up
played with my babes
sat at the com
played, looked
then my eyes felt fucking pain
so i went back to slp
slpt till like 5
then it was still the same
so i went to gym
since it was sunday

so i went down
then i went in there were 2 japanese and 1 indian
and so who cares
then i finished with the gym

i went to the mini mart
to buy 100 plus
then i went to sauna
wah today the sauna fucking hot
i swear
breathe also got problem
but i stayed inside for quite a long time
then i finished
damn shiok

then i went to the pool
walked to the table
put down my things
then i lit a ciggerate
then i looked down
there was a fucking cat!
but fucking cute
then when i went into the pool
i looked ard
then i looked at the dustbin
wah got one cat on top
then the cat fucking cute
then i look very long
then got another one come out from inside the dustbin
then another 1 come out
then all sit on the dustbin
all like babies fucking cute

then i come home
which is now
and im going to have dinner
play with babes first
tata

today i woke up
sat at my com
waited and played
nothing to do
i hate my off days
but i still take them

how long do i have to wait
i cant stop
maybe its just a matter of time

yeah right
im sure its true
i dont even know why like that now
i knew they would be a bad idea
and i guess im right
i would like to say something but i wont

fucking cibai
the stupid pacific internet spoil
cibai i cannot use internet yesterday

i went to watch poltergay alone
and somehow they never ask for ic
the show is nice but it would be nicer if it was in english
its a must watch if ur able to watch
then i went to meet my work mates to go eat
my friends event catering is on
so we went
went with my CT my friends
then we sat in a 5 people table
and more friends from rossete came
so we combined into a 10 seat table
then i ate the steam sea bass
it was abit fishy
but still nice
then after that i went home
and the internet was fucking spoiled already
so i went to slp


the whole night i kept thinking
letting my imagination go wild
i thought it still might work out
then i told myself not to be cause
i know i will be bluffing myself
and in the end i will think
and i will be unhappy again
ima go take a nap now
heads hurting
hearts hurting

today i had nothing to do
so i decided to have some family time
and i went wakeboarding with my sis
my mom spectated
had some fun
my sis told me its really hard when first time
but i went one round easily
i was scared
like got ppl looking
then paiseh but i did well
then i went to hk cafe eat
ate xo fried rice and stew beef brisket
very full
bought durian puff and pineapple tarts

i miss pineapple tarts
maybe you dont need
neither do i
but i need someone to make me happy
i dont mind anything, never did

you may never be wrong about a person
im the same
i once knew the best
fillial
kind
helpful
i wanted to make use of
wad i found
wad i had

time to do some cts again
feed babes first

today was a bad day
too many people in kitchen
too little things to do
too messy

came back after work took a nap
watched a little tv

i realise today
that when i stay at home
i smoke alot more
i think cuz im bored

bad day
bad month
bad 3 months
bad year

wish i could sing a sad song just to turn it ard

just wanna show wad we do at work

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work, school, mates
got nothing else i have to do
wads else is left to do
nothing