today i went to work
did my make up
came home rest
not feeling well

i thought back and thought bout my life
i have the most fucked up life there is
i got into the wrong road since sec 2
i smoke
i took drugs
i drank
i have probation for my crimes
i have not been good
i owe many make up lessons for ponning school
i have tatoos
i lost someone
i have a somehow broken family
i just want to change now
i have a chance

if i could redo my life
i wouldnt want it this way
i would not have loved you so much
i would not have commited crimes
i wouldnt have smoked
i wouldnt have went the wrong way
i wouldnt have let my family down
well thats wad they all say once its all done

i dont want to see you go this way
hate me if u want
it doesnt matter to me anymore
i dont need an extra friend
i have the best in the world
i just want to repay you
for wad i did before
i want you to be safe
i cared
you never appreciated anything i did
well your choice
everyone makes their own choice
and everyone makes their mistakes
u said you would take care of urself
you are heck care of urself
i dont blame u
hate me for all i care
i meant well
up to you how you think
and wad you think im doing this for
i wish i could say sorry to them
but i dont want to see them
i miss them
i miss their care for me
i hope everything goes well for u


i have accepted the fact
your accepting the fictions