feel sick these few days
still tanking through my make ups
feel like shit
coughing and weezing
i cant even breathe properly
i cant even go into the freezer to get things
cuz i wont be able to breathe
scared to contaminate food
taking 7 medicines at one time

went to work yesterday
then i left after i finished with my staff meal
i went home to sleep
then my friends came over
and we went swimming
i felt much better
then we went to slack in the sauna
then we went back to swim
then we stole a ball
and we played with it
then we went up and played nintendo wii
had so much fun
then had dinner
and they left soon after that

i realised
when im having fun
i dont feel sick
its like when im out
im super tired
but when i sit at my com
i can just go on forever

today im going to work
then when i finished ima go catch a movie
then ima meet my friends at night to go for my friends ec
looking forward to it
cant wait

time to feed babes
and go to work


iit isnt easy for me either
no one knows how i feel now
if i was as sick as this at that time
i would have just left the world
trust me i would