last few days were fun
gymed everyday
swam everyday
apple cidered everyday
but din blog everyday
on sat we went to cuscaden
there was me, casey, hanyang, zhenwen and justin.
then we ate our food
there was only one mee goreng
so sad
then we shared one dozen of chicken wings
and dinner was fucking good
then we had 2 jugs of beer
then zhenwen and hanyang left for lido first
then me casey and justin went up to chips
cuz we wanted to drink more
then we asked for a recomendation
and we had a HIPPIE DRINK
it was so fucking good
then we went out for a smoke
then we went back in each one took one shot
me and justin had a butterscotch
and casey had a peach schnap
it was all fucking good
then we walked back to lido to meet the rest
we were all fucking high and happy
then we planned this week already
this week
we will gym everyday as normal
then we will go to drink on one of the days
budget $70
and on thurs we are going to helmy's open house
makan soup TULANG SIOL
cant wait
then yah
sunday was soso
i went for my cso
then i went to town
had a nice dota match
i pwned
then had dinner in town
then went home to gym
yeah thats all
and today no one woke me up for school
so im just going to town later yup

going to feed myself
then feed my babes
tata

today was a good day
lazy to blog
super tired
so i shall sum up everything

school
town
dota
friends
laksa
apple cider
gym
swimming
now

going to feed my babes
nite nites

My ambition
is to be the director of f&b in singapore
but it will take a long time
so before that i am going to study finish and get my diploma
then i want to go work
then do my ns
then complete my bond
then i will maybe work for 2 or 3 more years
then maybe further my studies in switzerland
but in the end i still want to be back in singapore
then i shall work my way from there on

the best is still strike toto
then dunid to work already


this is my it lesson work

yesterday i started drinking apple cider
i tried making one cup for myself
i couldnt find honey so i din sweeten it
i made one cup
i drank it all in one go
cuz it smelt like shit
then it was so sour
i couldnt even breathe
i almost vomited
it was so sick i swear
then today i drank one cup with honey
so much better

DIET FTW

today was a good day
today i din go school
cuz my mom tried to wake me up
and she slap my hand
and i got fucking angry
so i just slept on
anyways todays school was going to end at 11+
3 hours of school so its ok
then i went over to meet greg and casey
played abit of dota
then went down to town
then there were alot of people
then we played dota
jothi greg and casey VS me jasper porn zhenwen
we won
then came back home
jasper greg and casey came over
then aaron and brian came later
went down to gym
had a chat with kingkong
then went to swim
then came up then everyone left soon after

just fed my rabbits
poor babes have no more food
left the shit tt they dont like to eat
then they keep looking at me with tt look
but i couldnt do anything
going to buy more food for them tml

going to slp now
toodles

today school was ok
i left before the last lesson
then i went to town
went to meet everyone
came home chionged gym with casey
then had a nice long chat in the pool
with 2 ang mohs who were quite hot
but they were like taking photos in the pool
so their kinda wierd
then came up watched some you tube
cooked supper for casey
then they just left

today i realised
what are true friends, close friends and good friends
theres actually a formula to understand this theory easily
Close Friends = True Friends + Good Friends
i havent been one but there are 2 people
who i know are to me close friends
they are brothers
they helped me so much

they helped you too
dont think because i dont want to go farther with this matter
its because of u
u think i give a fuck?
my close friend has had a talk with me today
he made me understand
maybe i was just too angry
i acted irrashionaly
but i did not act wrongly
thats for a fact
after today
i realised who are the friends
who are the losers

Su Jia Qi
to you maybe im a loser
and maybe to many others
to me? you can go fuck your baby sister with your mom and ur sis licking your ass
youve always been the loser
grow up
maybe you should join shatec
maybe its a cooking school maybe its shit to you
but it matures ppl
and thats what you need
oh im sorry maybe your trying to keep the wave length
cuz u failed your fucking N levels
and oh wow what a loser 17 year old sec 4 normal acad?
other people who fail Os its nothing Os are hard
Ns? ha fucking loser

i may be a loser
i know im not in the shit situation as u are in
so now, theres no point in you studying
since your already a loser
go and cry about your results
go and find tt bitch of yours

someday when you get confronted by her dad
i will be looking down on you
laughing at a loser
i have money to spend like free
so wad even eating kfc you cant pay for her
fucking loser
go and beg from me i would gladly pity you and spare you $2.10
you can buy her cheese fries
better than her paying for herself
so tell me now
am i a loser for isolating myself from everyone because of her?
or are u the loser!

one day when you have gone through wad i have
and you understand how i felt
you come back to us
i will spit on ur fucking face
and tell you to fuck off
i wont even pity you
because you turned your back on us and especially me
and threw knives backwards
you dont know the shit you have gotten into
youve changed
a girl can do that
but the guy has the power to choose
i was foolish before
you will be soon too



going to feed my babes
tata

today is a fucking good day

i lost 2 fuckers as friend

and it feels good

well school was soso today

quite ok had some boring moments

but quite some funny moments

today i was asked to change my blog temp

so i did and this is wad ive done

then i went down to town

met casey and helmy

then stayed there awhile

then we went home

stayed upstairs quite awhile

then we went down to gym

gym today was ok

quite packed

but they left soon after

then we went swimming

and guess WHAT?

RAY.BAN

i found it when i was swimming laps

he just wanted to be like me

dontcha

its fucking Genuine shit

fucking happy

then we came up

i made supper for casey and helmy

YattyMee

EggWithCornBeef

&

CornBeefWith Egg

well today was a rather fine day

results of diet plan

BreakFast: Nil

Lunch: nuggets

Dinner: 3 pieces of bread and corned beef

well going to feed my babes

going to slp nows

tata

you want to do this ok
ill play with you wadever game you want to


you know why i spent all those money on you?
you dont know how much i loved you
you dont know wad i would do for you
i wanted to use the only thing i have to spare
just to try and keep you with me
love sacrifices self respect
i loved you so much i wanted you back even though wad you did
so FUCK YOU
if i think i treated u as a prostitute
i didnt but i do now
go and fuck him who cares


you want me to tell you how i know?
my source is my eyes
i saw your photos in his fucking phone
so dont bullshit
and tell people you started after
trying to save face?
FUCK U BITCH
fucking whore


you dont think this is a game?
what the fuck are u playing
your sick game


you hate to do this?
FUCK U RIGHT IN UR FUCKING FACE BITCH
you dont care
ur a cold hearted slut
go and club
go and drink
go and fuck ard
i hope you get the worst


you ask why only now
why only after i wanted to help you
why i wanted you 2 to be together
my problem is my soft heartedness
its only i realise after i talked to my Friends
and thought about it seriously


i still din mind if just shut the fuck up
and we would be friends
SO SHUT YOUR FUCKING FACE
FUCK THE PRICK YOUR WITH
if i din love your family
i would have scolded them
but i do love them


wads to a prostitute other than earning money
following me to lock up
following me to court?
to earn money what the fuck is tt compared

TELL THEM WHAT I HAVE SAID
JUST TELL THEM
i have never said anything bad
at most i said fuck them lah i dont care anymore
i din even mean it
i said it to you cuz i wanted to go out to town
i said it to you so you will let me out
to meet MY FRIENDS

so whose the one who hated them?
even if they beat me
i wouldnt do anything back
ive been friends with them 4 or more years

you know i put friends in front of family
even the problem i have with them
is because i dun want u to be angry
that they come over my house to party
dun tell me you din ask for me to do it
you give me that wadeva voice
you give me the anything lah attitude


SO READ THIS CLEAR
FUCK YOU VENELYN ONG
FUCK HIM SU JIA QI
stay away from my friends
dont try and fit in
dont try and seduce my friends just to get close
FUCK OFF UNDERSTAND

i din want to go this far
you pushed me
when i was in love i din have a limit
i have a fucking limit now
and i have a fucking temper
so go and fuck yourself
and fuck off k just fuck off
you think im not over
ive just let it all out
you wont see me posting about this
unless its a reply

FUCK YOU TWO DOG COUPLE GO DIG A GRAVE AND FUCK TILL YOU DIE
dont force me
a broken baloon can still burn
i can go so much farther

this is my school it thing
she taught us how to make a blog
while im crazy taxi'ing
then now i have to post my ambitions

my ambition is to become singapore director of food and beverage
the end

theres no way i will ever believe
i have my info
all along i thought i was wrong
t hats why i saved 800 for u to spent
if only i knew
i would have a fucking good fishing rod
but all along i wasnt
thinking about this
i knew it was happening so i try and stop it
by making you go out less with them
but u say im overprotective?
and broke up with me because of that
i dunno why lah but i dont think you have any self respect
you knew you werent going to be back with me
and you can spend the 600 of the 800 i brought out tt day
maybe you were only with me in the first place because of that
you talk about trust
when u check my phone can
i duwan u get angry
i wan check urs? you get angry
wtf is trust to you
dont talk to me bout these bullshit

fuck it k
if we continue quarrelling on like this in the end i will win
im not scared to
but i dont want to
if u want to just tell me
i would gladly comply

i got a new mouse
i got a new keyboard
played rugby today
going to rugby more often
need more ppl
who wan play can tell me

going on a strict diet
doing well so far
i got ready 3 packets of gastric meds

i dunno wads trust when i knew it was going to happened
i dunno wads doubt when it was going to happen
i dunno why i keep knowing it was going to happen
oh yah maybe its when you dont want me to with you when we're out
oh yah maybe its also when you hugged him
oh yah maybe you like to let him touch
oh yah maybe you like to let him hold your stuff instead of me
oh yah maybe you like to go out and drink with other people, especially when im gone and never there
oh yah maybe you like to do things behind my back
i dunno why im doing this
i dont want to quarrel over this shit
ive treated my friends the best
even when i fell apart with aizaad they all
i would never talk bad behind their back
i would never curse them
i would never do anything to screw their life up

you two wont have me to support you all
never will

going to feed my babes
then going to slp

remember i asked u once
do you have anything going on with him
you told me no

remember you told me to wait till your exams were over
no lie?

it doesnt matter anymore to me
it doesnt concern me
and i dont really care who its going to affect next time
i just cant get over it
cuz im regretting
i dont care about him anymore
dont care who gets hurt
i just feel really stupid now

well they have talked it out
maybe he understands
and maybe he is ok with it now
but im not
never going to be
anyways its over
and im over it
anyways we'll still be friends no worries

well today the talk was shit
so much shit
my dad only came in and wasted one ciggerate today
i put in 60k for u
then went out played dota awhile
got thrashed
watched soccer at the hawker
then everton scored against liverpool
and xw lost money
and din want to watch anymore haha
then went home
did some home gymming
going to slp already its late
lorr i feel down
haha but i wont bother you
just gonna have an early night


going to feed my babes
tata

my dad came back
just for some stupid talk
3 days
6 trips 10k
just for this stupid talk
hes happy to see me and my mom
he came in smoked 3 sticks
ard 4-6 puffs and he put it out
and took it out more to smoke
waste of ciggerates
but i love him
i think he just wants me to
have less ciggerates to smoke
then he talked to me about stuff
then he asked me this question

" have you met other girlfriends?"
i said no
then he said
" dont worry
sometimes its like that
some girls just want to play
play with your life
then screw up your life
and there are some friends
they might do things behind your back
you cant choose friends
you find them and
you can only find people
that u can trust
but still you cant trust them
everyone will be your friend
all friends will be different
even the my friends are not good
you have to help them
and they will help you when you need it"


wad a coincidence
tts just wads happening
im thinking too much

going to make myself
a B52
night caps are good

now i know everything
everything you did behind my back
things wont be the same now
still friends
just not like before
you really hurt me
now i regret
not like before
not because i din treat u better
but i regret tt
i treated u too good

i din finish the baileys
but its finishing soon

going to feed My Babes

i dunno wad to feel
to be happy tt i made the family like me
or to be like sad tt i have caused all these trouble for u 2
i wanted to make it up
you dont want me to
maybe i should just be happy tt at least i tried and still gave a shit

i dont want to
it makes my head hurt

my life is falling apart again
everything hurts
i need to sleep it all away

i dont feel well
i think i need to drink
alot

yesterday was an off day
from GSS
but today after community service
need to start again
tired like fuck


its not tt i care anymore
when ur stomache is empty i wont feel hungry anymore
when you injure urself i wont feel pain anymore
if u are sick i wont be the one to feel uncomfortable anymore
its just i thought of the past
dont let this be a misunderstanding
and fuck everything up for u all

today i made dinner
kinda a failure
still quite happy
good night all
fed my babes

i dont care anymore
but i still wanna cry

din really bother to blog
everyday for the past week has been the same
after school i meet casey
and we do our project GSS
without fail we have been going gym this whole week
and we thought of a way to stay in the sauna for very long
we brought a dvd player down and watched movies
haha, inside the sauna watching movies
niice

i just woke up and played with my babes
my mom keeps complaining tt when she wakes me up in the morning
im like a drunk
and when i think of it
there is a resemblence
like scolding people without knowing
and not knowing wad i scold her

gonna get ready for school

these few days
i just dont have the motivation to blog

well today i slept my whole day away
casey and greg came over at night
went to play squash
went to gym
no time to swim
had quite some fun
blisters getting worst

i realised i smoke alot when im alone at home
ok anyways
fed my babes already
i even let marshmellow out to run ard the house
gonna go slp school tml morning


i keep thinking bout it
i dont dare to ask you
im afraid it will end
i just have to bluff myself
i just hope you know
i feel useless now

if only there wasnt this problem
this problem tt keeps me apart
i wish my wishes come through
who doesnt

just started school
back into school
so far away
so boring
lessons are like retarded
imagine sitting in school the whole day
doing nothing but listen
anyone would just slp
ima concentrate on my studies
and do well
i hope i can
sitting at home stoning till i rot
i need to drink badly

i din want to lie
to you so i asked
i din want to hurt anyone else
i was dissapointed
i put myself down