god has a plan for all of us
as i've been told
as i've believed in
but so far
the plans for me
seems more like wood
or maybe even shit
rather than the gold i was expecting
i shall wait
and keep on waiting
i do believe

prayers
&
will power

at least i can say i tried

From the first day we talked I was falling,
from the moment you smiled at me you had my heart.
That feeling never happens so fast with me,
but it did with you.
It's like you opened a new world inside of me
just to let me fall.
can't find many others out there who are like that.


i never regreted what happened
so far it has changed me so much
and i ought to thank you so much
maybe its suppose to be

This butterfly was made to fly,
not to crawl upon the ground.

Long time no blog so yeah i shall compile 3 days together


ok so here goes my long post





it all started on new years eve


to cut it short


i cooked dinner and invited ppl to come


there was Me, greg, jothi, casey, xw, ehron, emily and jojo


then helmy came


and we went down for fireworks and countdown


sat at the play ground and started drinking


we all got drunk and went mad in the end


casey jumped into the river


jothi claimed he was not drunk


greg was stoning


xw was emoing


emily left to meet cg


aaron dissapeared


jojo was alright


and i was splurting alot of stuff to jojo


and i have no idea why i was


so yeah


then went to slp


then woke up


stoned


and found emily in the house


then me jothi emily jojo went to swim


just to discover that the water was freezing


then after awhile we went up


then we went to pasir ris to fish awhile


we din pay but we took 2 fish home haah


i caught my first fish after 2 throws


cuz we were spinning


then ate dinner there


dinner was very good


then went home slept


then woke up and fished and that was today


supposed to meet at 7 at the pond


but i totally forgot to set my alarm


and i reached there at 930


lucky im Mr. 6 hour slp man


then went down started fishing


and yet again i was first to catch a fish


then it was quite an ok fight
the second travali was a better fight

i was actually smiling
and i held the fish higher
but i got tired
cuz some idiot took so long to take a photo

then greg caught right after me


then i caught again


then greg caught again


then greg caught again


then i caught again


then i caught again


then jothi caught his first


haha


so final score


yat 4


greg 3


jothi 1







i put the brackets so greg wont look like he was more than me
look at the emotions
so matches the score

then we went for dinner
then we left for home
and tts now
just fed babes
so dunid feed again
tatas

if only i knew earlier
i would never have came
u dont know how much regret
i have kept my promise
and i will do those 3 things for u
its the only way i can make it up to you
its not enough but for now its all i can think of
so sorry

Yesterday was zoo day
woke up at 6
but slpt at 2
i got no idea why
but couldnt go back to slp
so i slacked
till 10
then i went to wash up
shower
then it was 11
which we were suppose to b there already
so i slowly picked my clothes
smoked one stick
then cooked magee mee
then smoked another
then i walked down
and for the first time
greg and casey were early
well too bad its retribution
i was trying to be late cuz of them anyway
then went down met them
then waited for the rest to came
jothi came 1 hour late
then the time when waiting
some idiot kept saying zoo is near amk
but actually the zoo was near sembawang
then the rest came
and we left for the zoo took a cab
i saw amk and thought zoo was really amk
when passing amk the cab fare was $8
when we reached zoo it was $17
so is zoo near amk?
the idiot even called me when we in the cab
just to say its near amk
then we reached the zoo
wandered ard outside for like 1 hour before we went in
we ate and ate
and we smoked and waited
then we finally went in
then we walked ard and ard
and saw many animals
and guess wad
your not allowed to smoke in the zoo haha
only smoking areas
so we were walking and yearning for a smoke
walked almost everywhere
oh and when we walked in my phone was confiscated
cuz some idiot wanted to take photos
so i din have my phone with me
so i had to have some1 with me all the time
if not i lost cannot find anyone
then we saw many many things
quite fun actually
then after walking one round
it was already 6
so we went out
and thought for 1 hour where to go
in the end we took a bus all the way to amk
and the whole ride
i suffered
i sat beside an indian
which made me cannot leave the zoo
and the seat was at the engine so it was fucking hot
and summore to make it worst
the indian had super long hair
and the hair was disgusting
the end of her ponytail was a ball
and she put it on my seat
so i had to squeeze so i wouldnt touch it
then was super tired
went to amk
walked all the way to find place to eat
then bought ee mee
then sit down
eat abit full already
so the whole bowl i din eat
then slacked awhile
then we walked to cab stand
which took forever again
cuz there was this man with silver paint all over his body
he was dancing
then after like 15 mins we finally walked off
then we parted
and some came to my house
and we slacked and i slept

it was a fun day
apart from the
stupid people
stupid waits
stupid sun
it was great

we shall go to night safari soon
dunno wad to do now
lazy to upload photos
i go find something to do liaozzzz
tata

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!

past 2 days have been fun
there were ups and downs
but still i made the best of it


we shall dance till the sky is bright
today my marshy was running ard the house
cuz i din close the cage after patting it
i saw cuz i was peeping
then when i came out he saw me
and jumped back inside
hes the cutest thing alive

and some poor thing
sick also duwan rest
summore never get to see the beautiful moon


tonight was the shit yall

HWAT THE HELL IS THE
VALLEY OF THE SHADOW
MAAAAAAAAAAAAAN

good night everyone
merry christmas
tata

ive done my christmas shopping
sad thing is
only can get on the 28th or 29th
but still its ok
still happy with it
going to slp already
din slp since yesterday
amazing how i lasted through today
2 months of not being able to have a good slp
community service sucks
school hours sucks
my 3 weeks holiday is left with 1 week
at least so far we are planning to have fun
community service makes one smoke so much
so so much

time to slp
super pooped
tata

i din slp
at all
yay

this is the photo i promised

guess who is the one who died

looks are decieving

cant mess with my greg and jun2

The twin bodyguards

the way zaad knows how to take a photo

whole group except greg who came late...

The farewell group

JU i miss you already

Last Night was my Last Day
21st dec the day i quit


so sorry
i did so many wrong things yesterdy
i just want to apologise
i shouldnt have done so much
i shouldnt have had you see me in that state
although you took care of me
when i sarted feeling better
i saw you puke
and i was tying so hard to take care of u
but i was really gone
sorry for last night
well at least i did wad i set out to do
to die and to die i did

well it should be ok
since im the devils child in everyones eyes
im trying to change but no one cares
and no one bothers
its ok the devils child will do it himself
even without all your so called "help"
now i know wad people mean by just the cover
even i know how to say but i dont mean it
i still will try Myself

i may not do the right things
but what i say i will do
and i wont go back on wad i told you

there is one thing i dont regret and will never forget
i mind was dead
but i could feel
it was worth it

you were wrong
it wasnt you who wasnt ready
it wasnt you who was being selfish
it wasnt you who was irresponsible
although i believe you wont be anything like her
no matter how much i still want to
you deserve someone much better
i should have been the one who sent you that email
im sorry for everything


ill post the photo of me 10 secs b4 i died later at night
going to find something to do
tata

18th December
the most fun i had in 1 year 5 months and 5 days
i paid
i played
and to everyone who went
Its my treat
dont need to pay me the $10
you all made my night
so did that loser
cant wait for friday




The best is yat to be
but best is not wad yat feels
bad mood
tata

After 2 days of servicing the community
i feel sick again and tired again already
need more rest
need more alcohol
need more music
need something to do
need someone

community service tml again
haiz sick and tired

today was boring
finished exams already
did nothing
ate nothing
played battleship
went to riverine
opened 2 bottle chivas
me, i, myself, wo, orh, aku, wa
$288 burn hole is wallet
but yats wallet always got hole so its ok
finished drinking then came home
slack awhile and hopefully ................
yeah so

going to feed my babes
tata

Exams finally over
need to drink
need to get over it
still cant take my mind off it

today will definately change me
never thought it will
i feel so much better