I tried to pray yesterday
pray for help
i started to tear
after thinking about wads happening
so i stopped and went to sleep

Woke up with a swollen throat
went for exams
wasnt as bad as yesterday
especially after last night
then went home changed
went to marina to buy jeans from zara
bought one normal jeans and one black jeans
then i went to town
went to orchard plaza to alter it
then i went over to meridien
met casey greg they all
then went to wisma
walked, ate
walked back
felt so sick
fever was coming in
throat swelled so much
even when i moved my neck it hurt
couldnt swallow
couldnt smoke
but i still did
then went to monster
played abit then went outside
sat outside food court
stoned till 930 and left home
thought of so many things
though the headache



i dont know how to tell you this
so ill put it on my blog here
at first i thought of it just as a past time
then after chatting with you
i felt totally different about it
i never thought i would want to get into a rs this so soon
especially after wad happened b4 this
but after chatting with you i felt different yet again
only one person knows wad i felt bout u
it was a different story that i told everyone else
he is the person i told u i can 100% put my trust in
i am a person who gets so jealous over small things
but i learnt my mistake from the past
i was able to put it all aside just for you
i was willing to go to church and quit all the bad habbits
i dont have a reason to anymore
maybe you dont know how fucked up i feel
u made me hate something i went for 2 times and was going to continue to go
maybe im just unlucky...
very unlucky.





Maybe Its Gods Will,
But Its Definately Yat's Wont



Never Mix;
Poon
Alcohol
Ciggerates
Shortage of sleep
Music
Late nights

with

Troubles at heart

you'll probably catch a bad flu

tata

Wad a night
exam today was shit again
tml should be the same
just came back from cheekys
drank till my back hurt
head hurt
great night ruined
although it was ruined by the dickfest
i still wanted to have a good time
din have the mood to dance
thinking about it made it worst
but i couldnt stop
just reached home i havent studied
dont think i will tonite
not in the mood to do anything

tata

TODAY IS EXAM!!!
SOON IS EXAM
IT & WSQ
STUDY STUDY STUDY
CANT
TONIGHT GO DRINK!
ALL THE WAY

TILL THE DAY I DIE
I WILL KEEP TRYING TO FLY
WHISKEY IS MADE WITH RYE
ITS HARD TO SAY GOOD BYE
IT JUST MAKES ME CRY
MY MOUTH FEELS VERY DRY
I LET OUT A BIG SIGH
PORNCHAI IS A THAI
THERE ARE CLOUDS IN THE SKY
I COULD JUMP FROM SO HIGH
WITHOUT SAYING GOOD BYE
IM NOT GOING TO TRY
IF YOU DO YOU WILL SAY HI
THE MAN IS JUST A BIG LIE
WHY DOESNT HE JUST GO AND DIE


im a wrapper

tata

i dunno wad i did
you wont even tell
it feels like the past
being replayed
it does feel the same


couldnt slp yesterday
i lost my book
i couldnt study
i didnt study
i stayed till 4 waiting
still nothing


today i woke up
had this splitting headache
felt nauseas on the way to school
tried to puke in the toilet
then i went for the test
then i had no idea at all
how to do the paper

i need to study hard
but i cant get it out of my mind

Such a long time never blog
nice previous post hanging there so long
so far many things have happened
today this morning i went to school and halfway there
my friend called me and said got no lessons
then i went home and thats now
later going for interview at sketches at MS
then yesterday we were suppose to tan at sentosa
went over to gregs house at 10
but no one woke up
so we din go
but luckily
jothi just come back
then we went town
suppose to watch movie
in the end never again
as usual
then the gyming has been resumed
after the malaysia trip
and the pooning
gained 2kg from pooning lor


too lazy to blog bout the earlier few days
going to take a nap
and feed my babes
toodles

today boring day as usual
went for interview
quite good
next monday interview at sats
next week got interview with suntec chef
super sian

then guess wad i heard
i heard su jia qi is going to malaysia
eh ur bitch finaly let u go ar
i can guess wad happened
she dun let u go
then after i blogged
she let u go
so does ur mother not let u go?
fuck her lah
if u go overseas who fuck ur mother
ur sister your maid or ur bitch
u lucky i got probation
if not u dunid think about doing anything
u sure u can last 4 days without sex ornot
no girls going leh
cannot ask if can have sex as friends leh loser
u want friends with benefits?
how bout fuck ur family with benefits



the fresh foods have been delayed
again
maybe jia qi should poon
it will make him more normal
but too bad
fucking loser has no money
eh jia sorry i missed your birthday
maybe i should wish u a fucking belated birthday
the day ur mother shit u out
if im her i will regret
but i wont want to be tt loser
eh when u free
maybe i should give your a birthday present
i just want to buy you kfc
or have u saved enough already
fucking dog

there is a a delay in my order of fresh foods
super sians

well now i shall start bitching
eh su jia qi
u got money go malaysia meh
or u go there buy malaysia pack
u cant go because ur mother dun allow
or u dont have money
or u scared ur the only loser there
and feel left out
eh loser let me tell you
dun come msg eh i never say anything
wtf u post tt for
u think you 2 deserve for me to keep my words
come ill spread my ass and u can lick it clean for me
come suck my dick bitches
go and save money for kfc
try macs macs is cheaper just $2 for one burger
not enough come beg me
last time ur slut taught me
to be kind to those who have no money
and spare some if they work for it
i would surely spare u lots of change
if u come to me and beg me
dont need play music
dunid sell tissue paper
just come and beg me
fucking loser stay away from my friends
fucking corrupter
go corrupt ur family and that whore
dont come and fuck with my friends
u bored can go fuck ur baby sister in the nose
since you so despo for sex
i doubt she will remember in the future
fucking whore
The End


wad a great day
went gym today
went town today
copied in the test today
thats all

gonna feed my babes
sayunara

so long no blog
everyday was same as usual
school town gym
my ciggerate box broke
dunno wad else
going to fish the 1 more time before the fishing pond closes
anyone want to join?
everyday is so boring so far
not after today
after today i can get good slp at night
im going to toh ka liao si qiao piao

gonna go wash up for school
then feed my babes
tata

yesterday
i woke up early in the morning
to go fish
i went later abit
cuz i wanted to slp more first
only slept like 3 hours in total
was playing dota and chatting b4 i went to bed
then i went to marina
the place was flooded
then i went in
there was haikal, kai, greg, small mei
haikal the bugis
kai the mud
greg the bangla
small mei the china doll

then we went fishing
the chinese beat the malays
everyone caught expensive fishes

haikal had a $35 sea bass
kai had a $35 pomfret
greg had a $17.50 mang jack & 17.50 dunno wad fish
then i caught a $35 mang jack & $20 ang kueh
the small mei never fish

then we ate chicken rice
then went sent small mei to kallang
then went home with greg
then i toh all the way
till the rest came
then we played awhile
then they took last bus home
then i went to slp

then today i woke up for school
went to school
toh like hell
then went home
no one was going out
waiting for greg and casey to come over now


to early to feed babes
tatas

last few days have been the same
town gym slack
i feel so happy now


poon ftw
it takes away the troubles
all the troubles seem so far away

a payer is a player
toh arh toh

i know wad i am now jun
i am butcher
any fresher you have to slaughter it yourself

fucking bitch venelyn ong
dont go ard changing all my passwords
fucking whore
your parents are so nice
why did they shit you out

i said i wont if u wont
i saw ur post
i thought it was me
maybe it was
maybe you just wanted to cover it
fucking whore
if u talked to me nicely i would say sorry and remove
you talk to me with that attitude
fuck urself
go and masturbate with your massager again
fucking whore
pimple at the cibai

why you change your blog to only invited
scared ar fucking bitch
u think i dunno you scold me issit
change all my passwords


when you fall
i will take a cab down
look at you
and spit at you
i will pity you
bred to be good
born to be a dog
such a good family
wad a cheap slut

today i just drank
1 hippe drink
half dozen chicken wings
1 butter scotch
1 ciggerate
1 peach snchap
1 butterscotch
1 cherry shooter
2 ciggerates
1 cherry shooter
1 brain hammerage
toh arh toh
1 ciggerate
half dozen chicken wings
one hippie drink
2 shots of dunno wad
3 dollar shots
then went home
techno ftw
tml toh arh toh

you want to play this way
i play with you
to you im the loser?
to everyone else?
you wan join in i play with you 2
i paid for sex with you
so i dont really care anymore

su jia qi just be happy i dont msg venelyn ong
like u did before to you know who
i din msg "hey can we have sex?"
i din msg "can we have sex, i want to try as friends, pls?"
i know why u are doing this
your a fucking despo
and venelyn ong
your so stupid
i hope you suffer
jiaqi, i dont need to hope
i know you will
i will go and tell everyone of my friends
wad happened to you
what the real story is
so they wont believe your fucking bullshit story
you still can tell everyone that you dont know why
FUCK U UNDERSTAND
FUCK UR BABY SISTER
FUCK UR MOTHER
FUCK UR FATHER
FUCK UR SISTER
FUCK UR MAID
FUCK UR GRANDMA ON WEEK ENDS

and venelyn ong
dont think i wont say anything cuz u have a cibai
fucking hell you want to talk i talk with you
just because u have big breast
doesnt mean you must play with other peoples lives
your breast are big
your breast are lop sided
your breast are like jely
your ass is small
wad a wierd bitch
everyone you have been with knows
cuz your a fucking slut
fucking you like sponge bob square pants?
i know why
cuz your a fucking sponge bob square face
be glad your on a diet and know that your fat
cuz actually to tell you something i never told you before
you suck at having sex
you dont do anything for me
you get me all aroused then leave me there
i get you into an orgasm
you just lie there and " oh my damn shiok"
then just continues and sleeps in bed
how many times have you helped me?
2? out of 1 year?
go eat shit lah
you dont even dare to suck my dick
you have to learn
cuz tt bastard your with
he likes to cum in girls mouths
so you better learn to suit him and make him happy
you want to play with me i can play with you to the fullest
fucking despo dogs
gou nan nue

i hope you had your fun birthday
omg go sentosa? go sentosa for wad
you got money to spend meh
you pay for the entry ticket then
no money to even buy water
go and lie under the sun
its free
take a shower under the rain
its free
go and have sex in the sea
i did it before with her
its free but it sux
walk out of sentosa
its free

im so glad that everything ard is happening the way it is happening
some people call me loser
whose the losers now

REMEMBER
I WASNT THE ONE WHO CAME TO YOU AFTER YOU AND GREG BROKE UP
YOU CAME TO ME
AND WE STARTED THE RELATIONSHIP
WHEN U KISSED ME IN BED FOR NO REASON
THEN YOU MADE ME CARESS YOU
AND YOU MADE ME FINGER YOU
SO JIA WILL YOU STILL SAY I TOOK HER AWAY FROM GREG
LIKE WHAT YOU DID TO ME?
YOU TWO DESERVE EACH OTHER
BOTH WORTHLESS

today was a good day
yesterday casey jothi and jasper stayed over
then me and jothi slept in my room
and jasper and casey slept in the other
me and jothi talked for 2 hours in bed
then we had lots of fun talking about stuff
and i told him everything tts happening
and he told me wad happened last time
then we woke up in the afternoon
played computer
ate lunch
then jothi went home for tution
then me casey and jasper
we went down to gym then to swim
then so far i have lost 7.5kg
since i started gymming
good good :)
then casey went home to change
then we went to helmys house for his open house
the long awaited soup tulang
then sir hisham was there also
then ate soup tulang
and mee soto i tink
then we sat outside to chat and sing
then we talked smoked and sang
then went home
and i just reached home


i hope your having your fun time now
i just hear the stories about the past
the things you have done
i realised why your doing this
why do you have to be like this
i hear tt you tell my friends you dont know why i scold you?
u say you dont know why i scold you untill liddat?
dun lie to my friends
dun act inoccent and cheat my friends
i will fucking kill you
and dont go around tell people i started it when you scolded me first
you want to talk back about me now?
you want to solve this problem between us?
you kneel down and beg me
i might consider
you want to talk back and cheat my friends i can do worst
worst than wad i did before
and you will definately regret it
all in all
dont fuck up my friends
dont fuck up other peoples lives


i dont like to be like that
going to feed my babes now
nite nites