Wonderless day

today is so fucked up
totally fucked up
totally as in everything
FUCKED UP

if u feel so then let it be
but i dont want to

i dont think it can get anymore fucked up
anything & wadeva

haiz

fucked up life
i thought i had it good
fuck

virgins of charcoal

Last night i slept at 11
but i woke up at 3 and went back to slp
but i woke up at 6 and went back to slp
but i woke up at 10 and was too tired to go back to slp
nothing happened
i thought something would

Today was the first day in charcoal
Sir Wong is very nice i can tok to him in cantonese
i am doing the staff meal
and i work like a dog
but its fun
today made chicken, rice and kailan
standard foods
boring
going to be in charcoal for 2 months
not used to work there yet
time to go bathe and feed my babies again



i dunno if i did anything wrong
i dunno wad happened
i dunno why
i dunno how
i dunno wad to do
i really dont know anymore
i dont want to get used to this
i hate this
but its the only way
guess another night of tears to slp
i really want to be back trust me ill change

first day of rest

today was boring as usual
i was woken up by a msg
not from who i wanted it to be from
but he asked me to go fishing
and so we did
went to toa payoh to buy baits and stuff
then went there
we fished
and at the end some idiot caught none but was given one seabass from some stranger
and i caught 5 fish 3 pomfret, 1 seabass, 1 taiwan mouth
sud kee wee woo weet
now im home and bored as can be

tml ill be starting my work at charcoal do come visit when u free
visit doesnt mean come eat
visit means come and relac with me behind
if u eat means i need to work
but the food there is good

well time to bathe and feed my babies

last day of the only nightmare i was scared of

Today was a good day in work
everything din go as bad as i thought
in fact it was really good
had so much fun
i scolded ppl
i punched ppl
i sang a birthday song
i walked ard

thanks to all the ppl who came down to support me
i really appreciate it alot

im sorry i caused so much trouble for u and mad everything so fucked up for u
i promised you and i will keep my promise
dont worry i made up my mind and i have taken extra precautions
i wont be going out with them anymore
i just want to have fun and be happy
sorry for everything
the reason for wad happened
was the biggest flaw i know im the worst
just want you to know i will change and im sorry
i hope you have faith in me
and hope things will be almost the same as before
sorry for everything

SORRY EVERYONE YOU GUYS WERE THE BEST FRIENDS I EVER HAD

Sixth day of the only nightmare i was scared of

had a fun day today thank you so very much
every single moment
i enjoyed it so much
im sorry for wad i did
im sorry it has to be like this

since that day
i kept thinking
maybe i was abit too much
i realised i really was doing so much
especially after seeing my friends and how they treat theirs
but i want u to know
i really care
i really love you
maybe just too much
and thus it happened

if ever we do try again
i promise it wouldnt be the same
I PROMISE

thankyou for everything
u are my best and forever will be

fifth day of the only nightmare i was scared of

today was good jokes fun laughter and good work
very happy and satisfied

back pain stomache pain
gonna go S**t
and eat medicine

i m y s m

haiz

i dreamt that you came back
and things were like before
i dunno wad to do and wad to say
no one to tok to
no one to accompany me
i hate myself
everything hurts
life sux

Fourth day of the only nightmare i was scared of

A Better day today


so much better





just finished work


everything organised


had a little trouble but


we fixed it


everyone was happy





well everyone and everything goes well


and so we had some fun





anyone heard of Naked Chef Jamie Oliver


heres One Arm Naked Chef Jun Yat






Sexy aye
well time to feed my babies and to play abit of runescape
so much better day

i m y

Third day of the only nightmare i was scared of

bad day
dont want to blog bout irritating things

SO today i went to cut my hairs (more than one hair is hairs)
i only cut the back cuz it was kinda long

then went back started work not long after
then skip irritating part...
then halfway working i was asked to go out to do pr ( public relation )
and guess who asked me out
lao ng, faizal, lai, jingying, some other teachers i dunno

then not long after the day ended
had a long briefing cuz of the long day
left late

another boring day dealt with...

i felt so fucked up untill 12.18 and everything became so much better

second day of the only nightmare i was scared of

I just reached home and i felt like blogging because so many stories and so pissed off





i was woken up by my babies (my baby fighters)


i washed up ( squeeky clean )


left for somerset (meet my sous chef )


had breakfast ( killiney kopitiam )


went to rosette ( opposite meridien only )


saw the halal gurmok giller babi ( helmy )


then we explored the place ( still virgins to the place )


did our mis-en-place (its pronounced Miss Ern Plass) it just means preperation


waited for rest of my group ( late as predicted )

while waiting i took a photo of my SOUS CHEF






his retarded, anyways



got caught for my hair ( seemed quite long after i cut )


slept at the small house (tired to the max )


woken up by aboyer ( he came and practice shouting out orders on me )


started work (nervouse and panicing )





back pain, gastric pain, head pain, ear pain


ppl were shouting and the food and beverage side were screaming


i ate but had gastric pain


i dunno why but my back hurt so bad


and some ppl were so irritating stubborn and stupid which caused my head ache



wad a messy day
gonna go slp tired to the max
back still hurts
nighty night

those few msges helped so much

Awful morning

haiz
wad a rude awakening
i got woke up by the noise of my babies they were like declaring war or something,
when i woke up cheese was running ard like mad
but when i rushed out he was hiding in the house and stomping the floor
and so was marshmellow i moved marshmellow further

din really change anything
well runescape time till 730 and time to bath and get ready

tata

first day of the only nightmare i was scared of

This is my first post yay.
start of wad i feared.
at least i have something to do when im bored now.

As expected, another boring day.

I went to town got my hair cut,

i asked for the sides to be short and short was really wad he gave me.

well after i had my haircut i waited for casey but he couldnt come

so i went to dome and played runescape while every1 was playing dota

well its sunday its normal.

well its time to go feed my babies

i m y

i w w f y

t c o y i w b a t

it hurts so much